the lovelies that keep me up at night.

It's funny how just a couple of little things that occur can really change my attitude. I start out trying to be really positive and end up working myself up to lofty unrealistic expectations, then turn to negative, destructive behavior when said things *magically* don't live up to those impossible ideas. What a surprise. So what do you do, then? What do you do when things, little things at that, have such power to sour a mood? When that mood changes what you're doing or were going to do? Why do I give such little things such power? When will I stop and decide to take care of me? I go from wanting to completely isolate myself from everyone and everything, to desperately wanting company and to occupy time with conversations that lead to learning about others. I find isolation comforting and terrifying at the same time. The same goes with being around others. I used to not be like this. Ever since I recently made the decision that I was going to actually process  someth

I used to have this idea that I was going to create these elaborate and thought provoking posts. That I would inspire someone. That I would have followers. Really. Kind of silly now that I look back on it. Anymore, I just want to be a better person than I was the day before. I want to love people better. I've recently seen a lot of things in the local, national, and world news that aren't pleasant. My first reaction is to get enraged and/or feel hopeless. But time again, I keep coming back to a wise man's words: In a world where people react negatively more than they tend to think, I'll always be thankful for Dr. King's reminder that it's okay to reach out in love.